Since I began with self-development, I kept pursuing happiness continuously, especially something I thought was that an external condition would bring me happiness. Nevertheless, I realised that we all assume that we desire happiness and believe that specific conditions would deliver happiness. The previous month I had a breakthrough about the topic of happiness and how I believed in my adolescence that ideal conditions would lead to a more joyful and happy life. Additionally, I have recently turned 25 years old, accumulated various experiences, and have had a non-conventional life, which has led to some gratitude. Nonetheless, the breakthrough or realisation was that I desired inner peace more than happiness.
As mentioned, I realised there was a desire for inner peace instead of happiness in my current age. On the other side, I realised that I did not desire to pursue happiness but rather harmony, balance, peace, and especially peace through the stillness of the mind. Stillness can be described differently based on the individual we ask. However, peace means tranquillity and liberation from inner conflicts in this context. Coincidently, during my early twenties, I participated in a program about ancient Egyptian energy healing, which referred to ‘Maat’ as the most essential aspect of life. The term ‘Maat’ often gets associated with the ancient Egyptian goddess and her specific attributes. Such attributes and responsibilities contribute to peace, harmony, balance, order, and justice.
The main lesson I received from the program was to choose peace over the pursuit of happiness, which often is influenced by societal and cultural conceptions. Additionally, I had another realisation that I needed to find what made me feel content instead of what others meant would bring me harmony or “happiness”. In other words, the true self revealed itself and made me realise that I did not desire completely the societal script, which often is a relationship, career, children, fancy home, etc.. Rather, there was an internal voice, or one might call it vocation that redirected me to become and express myself more creatively than in the past. Hence, I began with the development of the current website and YouTube. Lastly, I was able to feel more peaceful than ever before, and it gave me more appreciation for the newly acquired harmony.
Happiness depends on conditions, people, experiences, etc. Also, happiness is a temporary emotional state, and often it gets associated with more pleasurable feelings, which is limiting. The law of polarity is significant in the pursuit of happiness, which means that each aspect of life and our world has two opposite sides. For example, happiness is dependent on less pleasurable emotional states such as sadness because they only exist because of each other. Additionally, the law of polarity is visible in Yin, Yang, black, white, good, bad, etc. As a result, I am asking, can you find peace in these fluctuating emotional states and not judge them simultaneously? Because that is where we will find peace, tranquillity, and harmony.